.contributed by Anonymous.
When I met you, you were sweet, and respectful and romantic, and I wanted to share my life with you. But I felt in some ways that you weren’t that interested in who I really was, or just didn’t understand. And you even disapproved of me in ways…which made me sad, because the person you’re with is supposed to be the one to love you in spite of your flaws. I just wanted to involve you in my life, and you wanted no part of my life or sharing with me what was important to me, but yet you wanted to get married. I tried to do everything I could to make you happy, and always just wanted the best for you. So I guess from the beginning, I really loved you for the respectful sweet guy that you were, but I could see the other nasty side coming out when you’d drink. And that has just gotten worse and worse, and yes, I was unhappy, but it was a problem that could’ve been eliminated if you’d have stopped drinking.
So after that incident in Mexico, I asked you to consider the effect your drinking was having on our relationship, and I asked you to get counseling. Your response was to come back from your trip to Arkansas and dump me. To me that meant that either A) you blame the problem on me, or B) you don’t want to face the problem. It’s just a shame it had to go that direction, because I do care about you, and I feel like you’re on a self-destructive path. Yes, you are making a lot of money now and doing well in your career, but the industry has ups and downs, and you’re riding high right now, but who knows how long it will last. And you used to say how I’d never find another man like you…that I’d never find anyone else that would treat me as good, but in the end, you really didn’t treat me that good. Yes, you bought me beautiful, expensive jewelery, but the things that really mattered, like taking a real interest in my life, were more important. I’d rather have had you show up at my concert when I thought you weren’t coming, than get 2938472089374390283 diamond necklaces, it just would have meant so much more. You just weren’t ever willing to go out of your way. And I guess the problem was that you thought you were just doing so much and going so out of your way, but you really weren’t.
Anyway, it’s hard for me to see the side of you that’s come out now, or to acknowledge that it was always there. You never want to ask for help, you always think that you’re fine doing everything on your own, but people are not built to be alone, or to do everything without help. I don’t think you will ever feel good about yourself if you continue to behave the way you do when you drink. And you shouldn’t. Money is great to have, and you have it now, but it won’t make you happy, and it might not even last. I hope that I’m wrong about the path you’re on, and I hope that you do make a change, and lead a full and happy life. That is what I intend to do.
